Briezy Avatar Art

Just wanted to plug my 3D Avatar Art. I'm working on designing the site that will showcase this work and also sell wallpapers and merchandise featuring this art. Let me know what you think!

Some merchandise is all ready available at http://www.zazzle.com/briezy

Her Confession

Her Confession is my first published novella. This book is based on some unfortunate experiences I had in an abusive relationship six years ago. Much of the circumstances really happened. I wrote the book to help people understand what it is like to be in such a horrible situation and to survive it. I hope that this book touches many people and helps someone get out of a bad relationship and/or avoid one early on. The intended audience is women, however men could find it interesting and the perspective enlightening.

Back of the Book Description:
Ashara had everything going for her. She was a young, beautiful, intelligent film student when she saw the mysterious stranger. Their eyes met across the crowded room and from there began a chain of events that would forever change one life and ultimately end another. Read "Her Confession" a romantic tragedy that takes you on a journey of passion, betrayal and survival.

If you would like to read the first chapter and/or purchase an E-book or paperback click on the image below.

Happy Birthday To ME

I am thankful to see this day (and everyday). I am thirty years old. I will not obsess or worry over what this means. I am not an 'old lady' yet ;) I do not have any specific plans for the day. I have been happy to hear from family and friends who are wishing me well and happy I am still on times side of life.

So what does thirty mean to me? Well I'm not in my twenties anymore. I had looked forward to that decade imagining that I'd be young and sexy mover and shaker. I never had any ideas about what thirty would be like. I have decided to be determined not to worry about what people think. I spent too much of my 20s doing this. I would dress and wear my hair according to what people thought. I would not buy certain accessories or clothes because it was so different and it would stand out and the general consensus might be that it is not cute (though I like it). I also have concluded that I must accept myself. Some things about me are not going to change. I have sobered to the idea that I am short. I am 5'3 and not going to get any taller. Yes I always felt my spirit was much taller but the fact remains I am 5'3. Also I have big hair. I must just embrace this instead of pinning all this hair in a ball and the nape of my neck. I also don't know if I'll ever be skinny (or if I even want to be).

I believe I am wiser than I have ever been. I know because I can tell you if I don't know something; and I don't know everything. I also have a thirst for knowledge. I have learned only fools feel they know it all and that there's nothing you can tell them.

Lastly I know that tomorrow is not promised. I know that this story- the ultimate Book of Devan has an ending somewhere- at least the flesh certainly does. So I plan to live life to the fullest. I don't want to be fearful or worrisome; but rather to trust in God and the be present for my life. So I suppose I should end this and get on with living! God Bless you have an awesome day, I plan to! :)

Rambling

Can rambling ever be good? Well hopefully so. Because right now I have to get this out. I feel compelled to write, and in such a way as I usually would by hand in a decorative blank book of a journal. I have run out of space in my latest one and I continue to forget to pick up another one.

I tend to waste time lately. I hate to admit this but I believe by my usual tight wad standards, I am in fact wasting time. Wasting it either in leisure or curious researching without a present purpose. Like I just spent about 3 hours watching a documentary about JFK assasination. This subject interests me a great deal ever since I saw Oliver Stone's movie about it. The film I just finished watching was called "The Men who killed JFK". It was parts of an A&E special. It was very in depth and I believe it all to be accurate. I promised myself I would not go babbling passionately about any conspiracy theories to my husband because he won't 'buy anything just because I have' (a paraphrasing of his words). Also it's harder to tell someone all about some documentary. He may as well watch it, but he would not. He'd rather play Guild Wars for 3 hours and declare it is NOT a waste of time. He knows how to relax. I don't. Even when I do I feel I should be doing something else.

Like the never-ending laundry, mopping the floors or organizing my extensive book collection, or spending some quality educational time with my four year old son or working on my book.
But instead I have been wasting time in Second Life and on Netflix. There I have admitted this horrible fact. In between that I have thought about working on my book. I have thought of my characters and their motivations. I have done laundry, cooked breakfast, lunch and dinner and done some cleaning and fussing at my teen-aged son and my toddler son mostly about cleaning. My sons harass me about entertainment pretty often. My 4 year old plays the x-box and watches DVD's and plays with action figures. Sometimes he will try to do all three of these things at the same time. My teen is either on the phone or in and out of the house all day. He's constantly asking, "Can I go do this or that with her and him and them and if so till how long?" I feel so torn because I want him out my hair but I don't want him free to be gone for hours on end unaccountable. Its mentally tiresome.

I suspect however that I am not wasting time per-se. Perhaps this is life right now. I am thankful for all blessings, big and small. I am thankful for love and joy and material blessings. I am thankful for time as well. When I remember that my life is but a mist, and that someday it will come to an end then I feel like I should spend time doing something noble and great. So I guess I'll end this and get at it.

Promises

I know I said I'd write daily... and then I stopped. I didn't have anyone from my social sites visit me here as I thought they would. Eh what can I say. Online friendship is not real and then again even with friends who I know both on and off line these last five years have been less friendly. I wonder about this at times. I think it is because I got married five years ago and then soon after marrying got pregnant. My life drastically changed and my associations at the time just didn't keep up with my life events. There were some people who surprised me. I thought they'd remain close no matter what. I mean these were blessed changes not like I'd become a crackhead or anything.

But hey what is is. I have a wonderful family and my husband and children depend on me very much and life goes on. I also wonder is it an age thing? I was 25 five years ago and now I"m tapping on the big 3-0. People ask me what do I want to do to commemorate such a birthday. I have heard of people throwing big parties or going on a trip or a cruise. I don't know what I want. I think in the context of the last couple years and the fact that we just bought a house; I don't need to break the bank to celebrate. But I know I must do 's0mething'. I was thinking of doing somethin fun and 'youthful' to prove to myself I'm not 'old' at 30. But now I'm leaning more towards just trying to secure time and space. I'm imagining 24 hrs of getting away. So I'm thinking of finding a Bed & Breakfast and hoping Hubby can get a Saturday off and we just steal away. In five years we haven't done that. Not since the honeymoon, which was only a weekend (Hubby had just started a new job and couldn't take his 3rd week off work because we got married).

I think the main thing I realize about thirtyish me is that I don't care what people think. I am giving myself permission to do what's right for me and what works for me. I should have titled this rambling because I lost focus of what I had begun to say.... Oh well. People did not visit or comment on this blog so I kind of neglected it. I apologize to the quiet soul who is paying attention. What's your name by the way? LOL Okay I'm going to leave a 'review' of sorts about a writer's group web community I've recently joined. It's been an interesting experience.